I’m new to this site. I’m gonna start off with a little rant.
Lads, I actually have no motivation whatsoever. Like, I WANT to do well, I WANT to go to college and do something with my life, but when it comes to work, I just can’t. I want to be able to study soooo bad. I envy those who can go home after school everyday and sit down for hours until they have their work done, homework AND study. I envy those who are organised and hardworking and most of all… who are motivated.
It’s nearly ‘CAO Time’ and I STILL don’t know what I want to do in college, I have no aim! I want to aim high but I don’t know what course I want or what college I want to go to. It’s so stressful ! How come everyone else seems ok? They know what they want to do.. I feel like the only one 🙁
My worst enemy : Maths. I’m in honours, just barely. My teacher is terrible, and he suggests I drop. I hate maths so much. My teacher makes it even more difficult than it really is, because when I go online to watch Youtube Videos, it’s so much easier. It’s like my teacher wants me to keep doing bad. I can’t remember when I didn’t fail maths. I know if I had a better teacher I would do better. It’s not just me who thinks this of my teacher by the way… everyone I know that had him, through the generations, ALL said the same thing: Basically, you have to teach yourself. But if its a hard subject, how can you teach yourself something you do not understand?
Mocks. 3 weeks or so. I want to study sooo bad, but will I? Probably not. And I hate myself for my lack of motivation , this is our last year, my last year. My final year, the year we have all been preparing for since Baby Infants, to think of it like that, I don’t want to bail out now, I’m in too deep. But, it’s so incredibly difficult to gain the stamina to keep going. How does one do it? I need help 🙁
I’m just gonna hope I start to study soon.