No, I haven’t died. 🙂
These past few weeks have been insanely hectic. I definitely don’t remember 6th Year being as bad as before.
Going back was that hard of a decision for me but the past few weeks have been harder than I thought they would be. For one thing, I’m starting to detest the subjects I did well in. Going over the same exam paper questions, the same topics and techniques- it’s frustrating. I completely understand that it has to be well-covered because my classmates haven’t done it before. Good God though, I am going to freak out if we spend any more time on Algebra (I’m also in Ordinary Level Maths). Am I still happy I’ve done it? Yes… I think so. It’s been a lot harder than I thought it would be to see my friends all going off to college, from moving out to their own places to drunken Facebook “fffressheteerrrs weeeeikkkkk” status updates on Facebook. If repeats in your school seem kind of cold, this is probably the reason. There’s also been that niggling, double-take process for the first few days. Cursing Revising Photosynthesis the other day I kept asking myself  “Is this really what I want to do?”
I don’t want my now-at-college friends to feel guilty or get sick of my moaning so I tend to just say it’s going great. Plus in fairness the last few days have been a real improvement and I’ve really gotten into the swing of things. I’ve met some brilliant people already too and in general I’m “glass half-full” about the entire thing. This whole post probably seems extremely self-centered to a lot of people but I think/hope that repeats out there will get where I’m coming from.
Why am I repeating? One, I didn’t do enough, full-stop. I completely underestimated what would be required for Medicine. Two, I didn’t get extra help where I needed it fast enough in the subjects I really needed it in. Yes, I had a horrendously awful teacher or two… but I was the one sitting the exam last year. That’s about it really: just don’t find yourself in my shoes next year!
Right now I’m knuckling down to my Agricultural Science project and at the same time loading some CDs into my iTunes library. Mid-term is most definitely circled on my calendar. If you’re finding it tough-going the past few weeks, hang in there. The year absolutely flies past, seriously. I already can’t believe that’s September over with only 8 months to go. You’ll get through it, and Summer 2011 will be great.
Mr. X