The road to hell is paved with good intentions, I really hope when I took a left off last laugh lane i didn’t stumble on this road. The past few weeks in school have been broken up with retreats, open days, career talks etc. Classes have been really relaxed and there’s a sense of winding down not panicking and pressure. Nobody’s talking about how scared they are, freaking out or anything of the sort. It’s all quiet… just a bit too quiet.
Everyone always says your friends will lie to you, they won’t reveal how much they’re studying or even panicking. I really don’t see my friends lying about stuff like that though. Nevertheless I’m now looking at everyone very suspiciously when they say ”Ah I don’t know any of this..” or ”Didn’t even look at it”. I’m convinced that there’s a conspiracy going on. Everyone can’t be this relaxed can they be? Or are we so scared and truly panicked that we delude ourselves into thinking things aren’t as serious as they are? Or is this supposedly insurmountable work load of sixth year a myth or just overrated? I mean if you think about it. apart from the fact that it impacts on the rest of our lives and everything, is it really THAT bad?
To be totally honest it seems sixth year is pretty fine so far, good test results apart from maths but what’s new there. Rather than feeling confident or even relieved I’m feeling very scared, when is it all going to get ridiculously panicked? I’m sitting here like a crazy person at half 1 in the morning because the paranoia and guilt has just kicked in. After an hour of guilty pleasure (facebook) I decided to write a blog in the hope it would spur my motivation on to get my act together. I went to the library today with great intentions, but really I didn’t do much. Skimmed over a bit of biology and irish pointless really. Spent the night watching X Factor particularly enjoying One Direction (the Irish guy is hilarious). Guilt always kicks in when I’m finished enjoying myself. If I’m miserable and worried all the time, If I do well, I’ll feel like I earned it. I can’t be all happy go lucky positive attitude or anything, my leaving cert. conscience just won’t let me. What’s really got me freaked out is hearing about grinds. Everyone is going to leeson street on Saturdays, getting grinds during the week.
Everyone seems to be on top of everything while I’m in the middle of no mans lands with my crappy study timetable stuck to the wall and my great but never fulfilled intentions. Should I start getting grinds in a few things? I only really need maths grinds but people are making me feel I should get grinds in other stuff too. What does everybody think about grinds and revision courses? I’m going to the revision course at Christmas, but maybe I should get grinds in a few subjects now, to be honest I don’t really feel like I need them but other people who don’t really need them are getting them so maybe it’s a good idea?
Well I better work on getting my act together, I’ll have to put the pressure on myself if nobody will do it for me.
Laters leaving certs
Tara.G
I also feel squicky about the study everyone’s allegedly not doing and grinds, but I’m staying away from the latter, purely because I’d hate to do well in something and never know if it was me or the grinds. As for the former, I think people have matured up a notch or two since the Junior Cert – I hope they have, anyway, because there’s nothing more obnoxious than someone who’s always going on about the very large tap they’re not doing.
I was once also of the same opinion, I’d love to know how I would do just by myself without any help. On the other hand when you’re competing with some people getting grinds in up to 3 or 4 subjects, that’s a huge advantage there’s a lot to be said for one on one help & very good notes. I know a girl who got 565 without any grinds, revision courses etc. you have to do the work yourself at the end of the day but I think grinds gives people confidence too which is good.