At 2.18 am this morning I got one of the most important emails of my life. I wasn’t awake for it-I was going to get up at 5am to start monitoring it but I figured results aren’t going to change, no matter how early I get them so I set no alarm. Throughout the Leaving I never really had any of those “freaky dreams” like losing teeth and stuff. But last night I did, crazy stuff, and I woke up more tired than I went to sleep-and still woke up early.
I immediately flicked the computer on and logged in. My scores are:
Overall Score (/300): 164
% Ranking: 72
Section 1: 64
Section 2: 57
Section 3: 43
I’ve been following this all day, from fellow applicants to the massive topic over on boards.ie. A lot of repeat applicants (apparently) have moved up, and quite highly too. There seems to be a consensus that prep courses for the exam help. I didn’t do one. I only did the practice paper. We can all see how Section 3, my BFF, turned out- no surprises there, coloured squares send me into convulsions. I was surprised that Section 1 overtook Section 2 though. Bittersweet surprise.
I didn’t want to blog straight away. I wanted to think it over… and I think I’m okay with it. I haven’t told anyone really apart from my fellow Medicine applicants from school. Initially I was really disappointed and that’s because I’m not that happy with how my Leaving went. I think I needed to hit the 90 mark on this and I didn’t. With a score of 164, if last year’s points stay the same, I’ll need 550 points. I can only cross my fingers, but after Chemistry and Irish, I don’t think it’s happening. This morning I felt pretty crap…numb, when I first got them.
I’m not that sad now. Of course it’ll suck if I don’t get Medicine this year but, to be honest, I’m okay with repeating. I know what I want to do and what I have to do. The uncertainty I had during the past 2 years is gone. I’m sure that this is what I want to do. Most grown people don’t know what they want to do every day. I’ve got that.
So either I get there this year, next year or after another degree because it’s just a question of time. I’m sure as hell not done yet and neither should you be if you’re feeling down. Yeah, these results are important but they’re not the be all and end all of everything-that goes for every course, every exam.
To all of you, I hope you are happy with this morning’s results and even more happy come August. Now I turn my attention to picking courses I might or might not take up this September. Remember, CAO deadline this Thursday July 1st, 5.15 pm- and don’t give up on Medicine on today’s results, keep it there and cross your fingers a grinds school explodes on results day! (joke!!!)